why is it I get so close to something and then go running in the opposite direction?
Letting it all out
I hate it how I can talk somewhat normally to an individual person, but when it comes to me with two or more people, even worse a group, I tend to go completely silent. I know I have come a long way since high school (though no one would ever believe it). The only person I would ever talk to is my best friend, plus a few select others occasionally. I would even be shy around family, not including my sister and Mom, for such a long time. Now over the past few years I have made it through the “social steps” of talking to individuals in somewhat of a normal conversation.
I just fear how long its going to take me to join in a conversation within a group. (And almost all quiet people know how lonely it is to be this shy) It feels as though I am so used to it now and that I have no hope that I am ever going to change. And that fear also leads into the fear of not being able to talk to guys that I fancy. (Yes I did just say fancy). If I do attempt at it, they would have no clue that I liked them because I am so nervous that I close up.
I know that this whole rant definitely doesn’t solve me problems, more just to get it out of my system (and maybe advice from others?).
I need a hug :(
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fml
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